Proverbs 14

"He who fears the Lord has a secure fortress,
And for his children it will be a refuge."
Verse 26

Clearly God values the home and the environment there. It should be the refuge from everything else that has happened in a day. But I know how it can't feel that way ifi don't put God first. There are days when I am completely stressed out and I let myself get agitated with other people and can act pretty abrasively, especially to the people that are closest to me. And then even when I come back home (or go to be with those people that are close to me, including Susan) that abrasiveness hasn't yet worn off. I usually attempt to use working out as a typical way to get some of that stress and frustration out, but even that still can't always solve me attitude.

But when I choose to have God as part of my day, much of that changes. I can certainly recognize those times when I am dependant on God in my daily activities and especially when coming home doesn't change any of the outcomes of the day, but it definitely mutes all of the emotional parts that are hard to control. So to be starting a life with Susan and thinking about coming home to her at the end of each day, it's critical that I remember how God intends my house to be and how my commitment and action toward God is related to the home life that results. I keep seeing in Proverbs that it is not all about me anymore, and that I need to expand my thinking to be aware of consequences for 2 instead of 1.
-Bob